almost done

well camp is almost over, i have afew days off, then 3 more weeks, then im done. and im going home. ill be home from the 20-23 only a couple of days but school starts the 24, so its all i could manage. i cant wait to go back to school and not have to deal with san antonio crap. my supposed good friend is now talking behind my back and not standing up for me when he talks to this other girl about me. cause i told her i wouldnt date anyone else if she wanted it to be us for the summer, and so thats what we decided, but then i talked to a girl, just talked, nothing more, and a friend from houston and her family came in and i spent the day with them, shes mad at me, there was no dating, no fooling around, no kissing, no nothing with anyone but her, so whatever. and yet she gets mad at me for this but not for me goign to see shannon a month ago in galveston and staying with her for a few days. eh whatever. oh by the way shannon doesnt want to talk to me either, because of her confusion, and we got into a huge fight over not knowing things. i told her that she knows how i feel and that i can act differently to make her happy, (not a bad differently), but she never really tells me how she feels, i mean i know that we cant be together and other shit, but i just want to know how she feels, and everyone i talk to asks me too and i realized tha ti really dont know. i think also we realized this last time we were together that we are just kidding ourselves. i dont know, whatever. otherwise, just chillin, trying not to fight with the other counselors too mucha nd just trying to make it through the summer. just thought id leave an update, need to go pick up a group of campers so they can come back and get lunch

peace